For me, at any rate. The wait w.r.t. Randall Munroe continues. For me, this time has shown that I need a healthcare provider, and that SO would like this as much as I would. He'll be a wonderful father too. So it's time for us to take the necessary steps to start a family, whether with our features, or just our nurturing. Doors opening and closing all over the place!
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Monday, April 08, 2013
Time... Wait For It
Randall Munroe has a comic up, it's called Time (http://www.xkcd.com/1190/) the mouse over is 'Wait for It'. He's been continuing to post past this comic, but this one continues to evolve. And it's still saying 'wait for it' so I for one, am waiting. I'm sure it will be awesome.
I'm also taking this as a personal message, waiting for an outcome that I hope will go one way, but which might well go the other. The main highlights are that a friend's mother guessed that I might be expecting (because I looked incredibly tired... not sure if that's good or bad) and I've confessed my lateness to my mother and another friend. I have also made an appointment with a doctor for early next week. Why next week? Because this is a short work week, with SO's grandmother visiting us from Thursday evening to Sunday afternoon. I'm also meeting my cousin for lunch on Wednesday and a friend for a 'girl's spa day' on Thursday, so I don't want to add potential bad news or investigation to this week. I figure, if the period comes, it comes. If it doesn't come, then I'll have more to ask her next week. On a less flippant note, I could take another test, but I'm quite sure it'll be negative (so much for positive mental attitude), and I know I'd be upset by a negative... so this is what I'm going to do.
How do I feel? Tired most of the time, thirsty often (leading to the obvious, visiting the loo more often), my fingers are slightly swollen, I have a constantly slightly sore lower back, and my digestive tract isn't functioning as efficiently as it used to. Are these symptoms, sure, but they could be because I'm not sleeping properly because it's hot (and boy is it hot!). I'd like to believe, I talk to the 'baby' but I'm preparing for it not to be as well.
I'm also taking this as a personal message, waiting for an outcome that I hope will go one way, but which might well go the other. The main highlights are that a friend's mother guessed that I might be expecting (because I looked incredibly tired... not sure if that's good or bad) and I've confessed my lateness to my mother and another friend. I have also made an appointment with a doctor for early next week. Why next week? Because this is a short work week, with SO's grandmother visiting us from Thursday evening to Sunday afternoon. I'm also meeting my cousin for lunch on Wednesday and a friend for a 'girl's spa day' on Thursday, so I don't want to add potential bad news or investigation to this week. I figure, if the period comes, it comes. If it doesn't come, then I'll have more to ask her next week. On a less flippant note, I could take another test, but I'm quite sure it'll be negative (so much for positive mental attitude), and I know I'd be upset by a negative... so this is what I'm going to do.
How do I feel? Tired most of the time, thirsty often (leading to the obvious, visiting the loo more often), my fingers are slightly swollen, I have a constantly slightly sore lower back, and my digestive tract isn't functioning as efficiently as it used to. Are these symptoms, sure, but they could be because I'm not sleeping properly because it's hot (and boy is it hot!). I'd like to believe, I talk to the 'baby' but I'm preparing for it not to be as well.
Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Still Waiting
Since I tested (only 2 days ago) nothing has changed. I'm all confused, not sure what to do, what not to do, who to tell etc. I did start multivitamins though, and (rather stupidly) with B complex. Too much vitamin B is the minor result of this adventure. Funny how quickly the body reacts to some stuff.
Monday, April 01, 2013
As Expected
I am not expecting. My period is not here yet, but it's probably a matter of hours now. I took a test (after holding out 4 days beyond the expected date of my period) and it's negative. I'm not devastated, I suppose mainly because this would have been a real miracle, and maybe I'm a little bit in shock, but maybe also the experience of being mother to my friend's baby for 5 months has made these little waits completely tolerable.
Fayakun :)
Edited to Add: I was all philosophical in the earlier part of this as it was morning. I woke up practically in the middle of the night (3 a.m), went back to sleep and woke up again at 4:30 a.m. That time, I told myself that since I was up, I should test. Last night, I strategised about how I would go about testing (no pee sticks, need a receptacle... sorry! I know it's TMI). Anyway, I tested, waited the appropriate amount of time, saw the 'Control' line and gave up. I went about my day and figured that my iron is low, which is also what could be causing fatigue. Dutifully, I also surfed the net for other people who were 'delayed' but had negative test results. I noted that several of them went back and looked at their tests hours later (gross you say?). I also noted that several hours have passed and my period is not here yet. Maybe tomorrow... maybe.
Though, I'm back home now, and true to gross form, I've re-checked and there is what would at least qualify as an evaporation line. So... I'm gross :)
Fayakun :)
Edited to Add: I was all philosophical in the earlier part of this as it was morning. I woke up practically in the middle of the night (3 a.m), went back to sleep and woke up again at 4:30 a.m. That time, I told myself that since I was up, I should test. Last night, I strategised about how I would go about testing (no pee sticks, need a receptacle... sorry! I know it's TMI). Anyway, I tested, waited the appropriate amount of time, saw the 'Control' line and gave up. I went about my day and figured that my iron is low, which is also what could be causing fatigue. Dutifully, I also surfed the net for other people who were 'delayed' but had negative test results. I noted that several of them went back and looked at their tests hours later (gross you say?). I also noted that several hours have passed and my period is not here yet. Maybe tomorrow... maybe.
Though, I'm back home now, and true to gross form, I've re-checked and there is what would at least qualify as an evaporation line. So... I'm gross :)
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