I need to free myself of expectations that I appear to have of SO. I keep telling myself that the expectations are based on commitments he made, but that doesn't change reality. The reality is that he doesn't live up to those expectations. This means that I'm constantly irritated that he's not doing what he said he'd do. Which doesn't help with my peace of mind.
What I need to do, is to let go of these expectations, and cope with life as it is. Not as it was supposed to be. It's not easy, but it's necessary. What it is, is that on weekdays I should be prepared to be a single parent. If he works late hours, then he's not going to be available in the morning either. If I want to find time for exercise, I've to do it while at work. If that means I miss team lunches on 2 days, that's what I need to do. I'll pick that thought up a little later.
I need to plan meals and cooking around the time I have available, probably mornings and afternoons, planning to cook once in 3 days so there is relatively fresh food. There is the option of alternating rice and rotis. Planning meals will need to happen by Friday evening, so shopping can be meaningful. Meals are breakfast, snack and dinner, 5 days a week and breakfast, lunch, snack and dinner for the remaining 2. Snack can be fruit on several days, but some alternatives need to be available, like pancakes/bread and cheese... look for other options. Breakfast also needs a few more options to be generated.
Exercise. This needs to become a priority. When/how. Needs a little more thought.
Relationship: This one is now on the back-burner. I need no expectations here, I cannot have any of SO.
What I need to do, is to let go of these expectations, and cope with life as it is. Not as it was supposed to be. It's not easy, but it's necessary. What it is, is that on weekdays I should be prepared to be a single parent. If he works late hours, then he's not going to be available in the morning either. If I want to find time for exercise, I've to do it while at work. If that means I miss team lunches on 2 days, that's what I need to do. I'll pick that thought up a little later.
I need to plan meals and cooking around the time I have available, probably mornings and afternoons, planning to cook once in 3 days so there is relatively fresh food. There is the option of alternating rice and rotis. Planning meals will need to happen by Friday evening, so shopping can be meaningful. Meals are breakfast, snack and dinner, 5 days a week and breakfast, lunch, snack and dinner for the remaining 2. Snack can be fruit on several days, but some alternatives need to be available, like pancakes/bread and cheese... look for other options. Breakfast also needs a few more options to be generated.
Exercise. This needs to become a priority. When/how. Needs a little more thought.
Relationship: This one is now on the back-burner. I need no expectations here, I cannot have any of SO.
