I went on a road trip over the last weekend. Left on Friday, returned on Sunday. SO could not make it due to work, and the trip was with a bunch of Harley owners. It was FUN! The ride was fantastic, the destination was fantastic, the partying was... nice. There will be some politics, but I plan to stay far away from that.
The job in Singapore is an almost done deal, and the more 'done' it gets, the sadder I am about the bike. Selling the bike is a real option, but having spent this much time on this bike, I am not sure I want to part with it. It is not only my decision, the bike also belongs to SO, but I've spent much more time on it and am certainly more attached to it than he is.
Personalities are funny things. People do stuff, they make mistakes etc., and sometimes they realise and want to fix stuff, but more often than not, they are sure that they are right, so no mistakes have been made. From there, grow issues, and eventually, politics. Repeatedly.
I am learning to 'be' or maybe even 'be here now'. There are various philosophies that talk about how the person is a myth, that all of us are just awareness. Any notion of a 'self' are just manifestations of ego. I understand all of this, and this idea brings me tremendous peace. I am still grappling though, with why I should work if this is the case. This 'beingness' also makes me question physical urges (of which I have many). It also makes me question relationships. I suppose to a true follower, all these things fall away, and the follower becomes a sage/sanyasi. I suppose I have not yet reached this stage. What I have though, is been able to admit that my yearning for children, intimacy etc. are all just manifestations of an ego, not of my true state, one of awareness/consciousness.
The job in Singapore is an almost done deal, and the more 'done' it gets, the sadder I am about the bike. Selling the bike is a real option, but having spent this much time on this bike, I am not sure I want to part with it. It is not only my decision, the bike also belongs to SO, but I've spent much more time on it and am certainly more attached to it than he is.
Personalities are funny things. People do stuff, they make mistakes etc., and sometimes they realise and want to fix stuff, but more often than not, they are sure that they are right, so no mistakes have been made. From there, grow issues, and eventually, politics. Repeatedly.
I am learning to 'be' or maybe even 'be here now'. There are various philosophies that talk about how the person is a myth, that all of us are just awareness. Any notion of a 'self' are just manifestations of ego. I understand all of this, and this idea brings me tremendous peace. I am still grappling though, with why I should work if this is the case. This 'beingness' also makes me question physical urges (of which I have many). It also makes me question relationships. I suppose to a true follower, all these things fall away, and the follower becomes a sage/sanyasi. I suppose I have not yet reached this stage. What I have though, is been able to admit that my yearning for children, intimacy etc. are all just manifestations of an ego, not of my true state, one of awareness/consciousness.
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