It's been a while since I've been in this situation. I've been here before and last time as well I was seriously depressed. I made a mistake at work. The fall out is limited as we sort of caught it in time. I'm also doing whatever damage control I can and my boss is being an absolute gem about this. However, the mistake was made, and it's my fault.
These are the times when being responsible really scares me. Normally I tend towards the right thing. Erring on the side of caution and all that. This one... has two points of view. It would even have been ok if I had considered the two points of view and subscribed to one. It's just that I missed the issue altogether. My mistake.
The problem with this is, I become very unmotivated about future work. I become scared of making another mistake. Then I end up overanalyzing everything, turning to my boss at all times etc. Not a very pleasant place to be in.
I know I'm handling the situation ok. I'm not running away, I'm taking responsibility, willing to face the flak, willing to do everything I can to fix this. But I'm still scared. The last time this happened, I worked myself out of my job. This time, I know I'm not going to do that. I'm going to stay and continue to do my job. I do know I'll never repeat this mistake, but I'm petrified of making another one.
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