Well, I'm back, mainly because I have things I need to process or just get out of my system.
I'm now the mother of this adorable little boy. He's 21 months old, and he's my favouritest person ever. I want to believe that all children are like him, maybe they are, maybe they aren't. But he's awesome! He's really easy to love.
What else is he? A lot of work. So much work that I'm slacking off because I'm mentally tired. This post is mainly to kick my own ass into gear and keep chugging along, because I owe it to this little, awesome human, to keep things going well for him.
I am tired, this is a fact. I work full time now, this is also a fact. Mental tiredness is hard for me to cope with. This is also true. Before the child, I used to cope with mental tiredness with a lot of rest. Downtime, if you will. I had that option then. Now I don't. Which means, I need to find new ways to recharge, that don't take time.
What works for me:
1. Feeling useful;
2. Doing something new/exciting/cutting edge;
3. Talking to people;
Why I'm having a hard time right now:
1. With the baby, he rarely gives me the sense that I'm useful. He loves me, but he doesn't really 'listen', so my inputs are best received when I'm doing what he wants.
2. Work is mainly the same thing again and again. When it is not, it is pulling together information for other people to use. I like learning things for myself. Selfish!
3. The people I mostly get to talk to are not recharging. Why? Because the topics of conversation are not recharging. They're not new or exciting, rather they focus on the negative, or on what the person has already decided, and end up draining me more.
4. Lack of rest..
What I find really odd, is that if it's just me and the baby, I'm fine to keep going, I feel much less irritated. When SO's in the mix, I get angry. Because I keep feeling like he should be doing more. Should he? Maybe. Can he? Probably not.
What do I need to do? Let go of the fact that he does not do more, learn to cope, plan, and execute. And I suppose, blog again.
I'm now the mother of this adorable little boy. He's 21 months old, and he's my favouritest person ever. I want to believe that all children are like him, maybe they are, maybe they aren't. But he's awesome! He's really easy to love.
What else is he? A lot of work. So much work that I'm slacking off because I'm mentally tired. This post is mainly to kick my own ass into gear and keep chugging along, because I owe it to this little, awesome human, to keep things going well for him.
I am tired, this is a fact. I work full time now, this is also a fact. Mental tiredness is hard for me to cope with. This is also true. Before the child, I used to cope with mental tiredness with a lot of rest. Downtime, if you will. I had that option then. Now I don't. Which means, I need to find new ways to recharge, that don't take time.
What works for me:
1. Feeling useful;
2. Doing something new/exciting/cutting edge;
3. Talking to people;
Why I'm having a hard time right now:
1. With the baby, he rarely gives me the sense that I'm useful. He loves me, but he doesn't really 'listen', so my inputs are best received when I'm doing what he wants.
2. Work is mainly the same thing again and again. When it is not, it is pulling together information for other people to use. I like learning things for myself. Selfish!
3. The people I mostly get to talk to are not recharging. Why? Because the topics of conversation are not recharging. They're not new or exciting, rather they focus on the negative, or on what the person has already decided, and end up draining me more.
4. Lack of rest..
What I find really odd, is that if it's just me and the baby, I'm fine to keep going, I feel much less irritated. When SO's in the mix, I get angry. Because I keep feeling like he should be doing more. Should he? Maybe. Can he? Probably not.
What do I need to do? Let go of the fact that he does not do more, learn to cope, plan, and execute. And I suppose, blog again.
