I don't understand it at all, but it feels like I have found something. Times have been tough, work has been challenging, but I've kind of taken a decision to follow a different professional path than the one I am in now, and that appears to make me feel happy. Like deep down, this is what I am meant to do, happy. I absolutely do not understand it.
Also, I think SO and I have reached some point of divergence. We live together comfortably, but we are not actually 'husband-wife' compatible. He's currently on a break due to my proposed move, and he seems to be coping well, studying, cooking regularly, it's been nice that way. The 'coupledom' though, I suppose we will never achieve what I'd like. And it feels like I'm at peace with that. I accept that I will not have love the way it is in movies and books, and I can live with that.
Also, I think SO and I have reached some point of divergence. We live together comfortably, but we are not actually 'husband-wife' compatible. He's currently on a break due to my proposed move, and he seems to be coping well, studying, cooking regularly, it's been nice that way. The 'coupledom' though, I suppose we will never achieve what I'd like. And it feels like I'm at peace with that. I accept that I will not have love the way it is in movies and books, and I can live with that.
